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Tuesday, November 23, 2010

1:01 AM ;

Thought i should revive this blog.

Have been doing pretty good these days, ever since the 'you cant promote' bomb dropped from the dean and HODs. But i havent been sleeping well lately. A question keeps me up at night. What next?So its proven that double lit will screw me up. A move to the poly seem, at this point of time, really appealing. But if so, i'd have to go for NS at 20. I guess i should make a pros and cons list for both 'stay in jc' and 'move to poly' sections.

Come to think of it, i think im slightly inclined to the idea of moving to poly. My days in tpjc arent easy. I hardly have any close friends. Abbas had his j2 mates, siti has got aqilah. I often find myself not being myself. Im talkative, pretty outgoing and funloving. But here in tpj i cant wait to go home where it aint awkward to be seen alone.

Its been a while since i last had a friend whom i can text 24/7, last one being a friend whom i later a crush in, whom i later almost got together with and eventually, decided to hate me for life. I like texting. I dont use it to flirt like some guys do. I just enjoy the feeling of having someone to share your joy and sorrows with. Like a human twitter.

I just wanna be happy, you see. People often see me cracking jokes, laughing and all. I guess i was truly happy then. I cant blame the school, no one's to be blamed. I guess i just cant click with people here.

Dear Lord, hear my prayer.